It's less than 20 hours to my CA. the past few days have been miserable with all the attempts to squeeze hundreds and hundreds of facts into my pathetic tiny brain on patho, immuno, genetics and cancer. i've been distracting myself with restaurant city and youtube videos, with a tiny voice at the back of my cranial cavity wondering if i'd traded too much for entry into this profession. people live life without having to study so darn hard. they get along pretty well without having to torture their brains night after night, panicking over info lit and ethics. you know what i mean. and they still get to do the things they love and live happy fulfilled lives.

so i was wallowing again. with a little bit of regret. until i read the last article from the ethics package (session 7, on palliative care) which we were suppose to study before tmr's exam. The essense of medicine by DK sokol. i haven't gone to find the original essay from which the statement was quoted from but i shall share it here. "Out of the resonance between the sick man and the one who tends him there may spring that profound courtesy that the religious call Love." Medicine is grounded on love. yes. even with all that hoo-ha over the genome project and SNPs and CpG islands, preimplantation diagnosis and prenatal screening, there is a reason. to be able to use what knowledge we have not just to cure and heal but to comfort. always. to use knowledge for comfort. that's not always something that we associate together often but it is true... we feel less useless as the comfort that we can give is not blind comfort... not sure if i'm making senseee...

and so i just had to write this down so i'll never ever forget it.

now i have to study info lit... haha.

can't wait for tmr to end! FAME!